I was trying to get through this exam period without writing an annoying post moaning about exams, but you know what? I just can't do it. If you're following me on twitter (and you should be @eleanorcos) you will have noticed by now that I'm not the best at studying.In fact, I could probably win awards for my talent at putting off studying until I stress-cry.
I spent yesterday watching a good few episodes of Keeping up with the Kardashians, singing along to YouTube karaoke videos and doing whatever it is you do on Tumblr. I also tweeted ALOT about my struggle to actually do work. This morning I had my Social Theory exam... and, it was awful. I mean, it was laughably bad. I'm pretty embarrassed that I even handed it up to be honest. I was finished within an hour and left after an hour and a half because I couldn't even act like I was helping myself anymore.
I'm pretty good at moving on from exams quickly. I'm not the type to go over every question and analyse my answers, once I'm done, I'm done, regardless to how I feel when I leave. So, I'm fine now, but, the problem is, I still have four more exams to go. My next one is MONDAY.
I think it's probably clear (demonstrated by me writing this post) that I am not motivated to study. Like, AT ALL. I don't know if it's my fault, in that I don't have the willpower to make myself sit down and avoid distraction, or, if it's the distractions and easy access to distractions via the internet, for example, that are to blame for students lack of motivation today. I just don't know. (I'm blaming the internet.)
Disinterest in the subject plays a huge part in how study goes for me, too, I think. I wish I was one of those people who loved their course and was passionate about university and interested in the classes assigned to them, but I'm just not. I chose to study Sociology and the History of Art and Architecture because I didn't know what I wanted to do. And it's that same reason that has kept me at it for three long, relatively boring years.
Every May I'm questioning my choices in academia and usually at about 3am I find myself questioning (and getting mad at) the entirety of our education system.
Because I like learning, I just don't like HOW we're forced to learn. And I do think exams are really dated ways of testing someones intelligence. But, it's probably meant to be different in university as you're hear VOLUNTARILY. And you have to PAY. I guess what I'm trying to say is, I'm not too sure if I chose to be in this situation, or if I somehow ended up here by not choosing something else.
I basically came on here to share my exam woes and to inform you of my shockingly bad study skills. I think I got a little bit carried away, but let's blame that on the three hours of sleep I'm working off. I will tell you however that I've still yet to do an all-nighter, something I'm quite proud of.
Hopefully now after writing this I'll find a new burst of energy and motivation. Next time you hear from me I'll be telling you about my amazing results.
(OK, fine, I'm going to watch more reality TV. Follow me on twitter to see me freak out tomorrow. It'll happen.)
